My most difficult to tell stories from the jungle go to paid subscribers only from now on.

Two weeks ago I wrote that I was starting to write a book. As always, the path is the goal.

Just committing to writing a book opened all kinds of new questions, opportunities, connections and also road blocks. I decided to go to the simplest possible way I found to get started and just write. Through my many experiences in the jungle I literally have hundreds of unusual stories to tell. Today I tell them to friends when I meet them.

I wrote and posted what I thought would be the best first story, my first ever cup of plant medicine in Peru and how my life changed. The experience was so mind blowing and pleasant that I started writing the next story, the “visions” I had the second night when I took it again and I thought I would just write the most important stories this way. Easy.

I paused.

That second night was so strong and in many ways so scary that I thought “there is no way I can share this to a broad audience”. This newsletter goes to 14,679 subscribers from 126 countries with a 60% open rate. The stories are very difficult to tell. There is a reason why most indigenous I know are always very silent and very careful about their words.

If I were a full time writer I would absolutely ignore what people think about what I wrote but I am also a father of four boys in a long term committed relationship with a wonderful human being. I am an entrepreneur building a community and a conference that has partners, supporters and soon possibly investors. What I write has an impact on my family, partners and friends. I could write it as fiction under another name but that has never appealed to me. I write under my name and I try to write the truth, or at least my truth at the moment I write.

The obvious solution seems to write it to a very small audience as if I were writing to a few friends as an experiment. I could go through my friends or subscribers list one by one but that seems like a lot of work. Who am I to find out who would be interested or not?

I already have a very small audience here, my paid subscribers who so far did not get anything different than free subscribers. I would like to thank them for supporting PAUA (where the $ go) and my newsletter, it’s been a fun experiment to see if I would keep having paid subscribers giving the exact same content to both. I did. Thank you. Writing the most special experiences to whom decided to support PAUA and encourage me isn’t perfect but sounds like a good energy exchange. I’m excited to see how it goes.

From now on I will start writing the most impossible to tell stories to my paid subscribers only as an experiment. If you would like to subscribe here it is.

I will also keep writing lighter stories and teachings I received to the entire newsletter.

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If you haven’t watched it yet we made a PAUA 2023 wrap-up video, it will give you a touch of the indigenous wisdom we had on stage, especially the words of the KOGI and how they see our technology progress which is dangerous if it is not in harmony with the laws of nature.

If you want to hear about PAUA’s next events, it’s here. I wish you all a great week-end.