Loic, I have always admired you for the most important and impressive qualities you possess. Your quest for wisdoms. But you are not DONE yet as you say. I’ve been traveling in my RV for 10 years now. I’ve experienced silence and the beauty of the desert and the forest. My dog Seesmic 15 brought me so much joy. The pain of losing him last December 2025 is still hurting. And now at 79 years old in August i’ll be really alone. But this time when I go to the forest and the desert in total silence, I will be able to feel the earth without all the responsibilities. You’re still so young but so open and you make me smile. The kindness that you had shown me a long time ago by bringing me to San Francisco and making me feel special has got to be one of the highlights of my life. I will love you and your kind soul forever. Never be done! I certainly am not done! I’m tougher than ever now! And so are you!
Thank you. If I had someone that would take the dog in case I died then I might do that. That’s what scared me about my dog Seesmic. I was afraid I would die before him and he’d end up in a nasty shelter somewhere. I’m in pretty good health, but when you get older things start to hurt a little more. But I’m pretty tough! lol
Thank you, Loic. I truly miss your newsletters and stories, glad your back.
Life invites us again and again into sacred transformations, what many call ego death. These moments arrive in many forms: the ending of a marriage, the loss of a loved one, leaving a home filled with memories, or a sudden life-altering event. Each “death” asks us to release, to soften, and to see more clearly. Through this transformation we are gently lifted into deeper awareness, becoming more compassionate, more open, and more loving beings.
In this unfolding, we learn to give without expetation, to love without judgment and to witness the beauty around us through clearer eyes. We return inward and rediscover the real “me” that has always been there, quietly waiting.
At 66, I began walking the path of plant ceremonies later in life, yet I feel it came exactly when I was ready. I have to thank you for helping me make the shift. It has peeling away the layers shaped by upbringing, schooling, beliefs, and conditioning. What remains feels more true.
Now, I simply wish to live the rest of my days aligned with what I love. Remember, life is just a passing moment and don’t be too hard on yourself.
I've been struggling with the idea of archiving much of my past too. There's this inclination to clean up, like a purity to it. To shed everything. And I have. Alot.
But then I also wonder to myself if there's a story to guide us at every part of the journey. That maybe I can trust that what's out there of mine, this residue I leave behind, even if that piece of art or writing doesn't fit anymore, is meant for someone on their leg of the journey. Maybe our histories, even how bitter and painful and cracked with partial wisdom are the beautiful breadcrumbs we leave behind for others. That we were doing the best we can. Sometimes it has to haunt us, to make us remember where we came from- and to make peace with it. I hope then- no I know- that we have the chance to become whole with mercy and grace.
Your writing always lingers with me Loic- thankyou.
Hi Krystal, great to hear from you! Thank you for your kind words. I agree and I think I will republish most of my posts, as I did with one about the illusion on my journal this morning. The main reason I archived is indigenous complains that I was disclosing secrets. Time will tell if like Yoga, the genie is so out of the bottle that there won't be much secrets remaining. Question is should I be the one contributing in getting the secrets out. Given that I still work and learn with them, I preferred to archive. The rest will likely go back up online.
Good thoughts "Sometimes it has to haunt us, to make us remember where we came from- and to make peace with it." love it. Keep it coming :)
It’s a pleasure to read your words, Loïc. I’ve always looked up to you, and even more so as you’re growing wiser. Thank you for sharing your thoughts so openly.
I'd like to know more about your life path to your new self. I think it can be inspiring to some of us living on the "mouse wheel" constantly surrounded by stress, and wishing to live a better life.
as I wrote, that one is tricky because I don't think I can provide much advice as everybody paths and experiences are very different, but I had written hundreds of stories that could make two books that I archived. Not sure what to do now, will sit on it!
I do try to improve. It is difficult for me. I am a substitute teacher and a cashier in my local market. I fear AI. I am taking an open source contributions class at my local junior college. I once was a software engineer years ago for 16 years.
Interesting to hear from. you, Lois. So many people are echoing your desire to communicate but more intimately, privately. The timing is particularly interesting as I prepare to launch HeartbeatCircle dot com, a new private social network, a private circle of a small, curated group of people you genuinely want to stay in touch with.
Loic, I have always admired you for the most important and impressive qualities you possess. Your quest for wisdoms. But you are not DONE yet as you say. I’ve been traveling in my RV for 10 years now. I’ve experienced silence and the beauty of the desert and the forest. My dog Seesmic 15 brought me so much joy. The pain of losing him last December 2025 is still hurting. And now at 79 years old in August i’ll be really alone. But this time when I go to the forest and the desert in total silence, I will be able to feel the earth without all the responsibilities. You’re still so young but so open and you make me smile. The kindness that you had shown me a long time ago by bringing me to San Francisco and making me feel special has got to be one of the highlights of my life. I will love you and your kind soul forever. Never be done! I certainly am not done! I’m tougher than ever now! And so are you!
thanks Freida, get another dog maybe? Thanks for your kind words and be well!
I’m too old now.
ha.
Frieda, you are NOT too old! Adopt an older dog and you can appreciate each other's company in your mutual advanced ages.
Thank you. If I had someone that would take the dog in case I died then I might do that. That’s what scared me about my dog Seesmic. I was afraid I would die before him and he’d end up in a nasty shelter somewhere. I’m in pretty good health, but when you get older things start to hurt a little more. But I’m pretty tough! lol
So, you have a solution that would allow you to adopt another dog!
My plan is to wait maybe six months and then decide.
Thank you, Loic. I truly miss your newsletters and stories, glad your back.
Life invites us again and again into sacred transformations, what many call ego death. These moments arrive in many forms: the ending of a marriage, the loss of a loved one, leaving a home filled with memories, or a sudden life-altering event. Each “death” asks us to release, to soften, and to see more clearly. Through this transformation we are gently lifted into deeper awareness, becoming more compassionate, more open, and more loving beings.
In this unfolding, we learn to give without expetation, to love without judgment and to witness the beauty around us through clearer eyes. We return inward and rediscover the real “me” that has always been there, quietly waiting.
At 66, I began walking the path of plant ceremonies later in life, yet I feel it came exactly when I was ready. I have to thank you for helping me make the shift. It has peeling away the layers shaped by upbringing, schooling, beliefs, and conditioning. What remains feels more true.
Now, I simply wish to live the rest of my days aligned with what I love. Remember, life is just a passing moment and don’t be too hard on yourself.
Thank you Star Moon, beautiful words.
Quel plaisir de te lire, Loïc.
plaisir de te lire aussi Matthias!
I've been struggling with the idea of archiving much of my past too. There's this inclination to clean up, like a purity to it. To shed everything. And I have. Alot.
But then I also wonder to myself if there's a story to guide us at every part of the journey. That maybe I can trust that what's out there of mine, this residue I leave behind, even if that piece of art or writing doesn't fit anymore, is meant for someone on their leg of the journey. Maybe our histories, even how bitter and painful and cracked with partial wisdom are the beautiful breadcrumbs we leave behind for others. That we were doing the best we can. Sometimes it has to haunt us, to make us remember where we came from- and to make peace with it. I hope then- no I know- that we have the chance to become whole with mercy and grace.
Your writing always lingers with me Loic- thankyou.
Hi Krystal, great to hear from you! Thank you for your kind words. I agree and I think I will republish most of my posts, as I did with one about the illusion on my journal this morning. The main reason I archived is indigenous complains that I was disclosing secrets. Time will tell if like Yoga, the genie is so out of the bottle that there won't be much secrets remaining. Question is should I be the one contributing in getting the secrets out. Given that I still work and learn with them, I preferred to archive. The rest will likely go back up online.
Good thoughts "Sometimes it has to haunt us, to make us remember where we came from- and to make peace with it." love it. Keep it coming :)
It’s a pleasure to read your words, Loïc. I’ve always looked up to you, and even more so as you’re growing wiser. Thank you for sharing your thoughts so openly.
Thank you for your encouragements, as I said I am just a student
felt this so much, thank you
thank you Lerzan!
great to hear you're doing well. I miss more frequent updates. At the same time, I'm totally fine if your next will be in 2 years. Do _you_, Loic.
the next one is today in my journal...
Inspiring letter! Waiting for the next one.
thanks for the encouragements to write more, what would you like me most to write about?
I'd like to know more about your life path to your new self. I think it can be inspiring to some of us living on the "mouse wheel" constantly surrounded by stress, and wishing to live a better life.
as I wrote, that one is tricky because I don't think I can provide much advice as everybody paths and experiences are very different, but I had written hundreds of stories that could make two books that I archived. Not sure what to do now, will sit on it!
thanks, will think about that!
Loic, it's always a joy to hear from you.
thanks Jeb!
I do try to improve. It is difficult for me. I am a substitute teacher and a cashier in my local market. I fear AI. I am taking an open source contributions class at my local junior college. I once was a software engineer years ago for 16 years.
Interesting to hear from. you, Lois. So many people are echoing your desire to communicate but more intimately, privately. The timing is particularly interesting as I prepare to launch HeartbeatCircle dot com, a new private social network, a private circle of a small, curated group of people you genuinely want to stay in touch with.